Healing Through Birth


My journey into the childbirth and doula world began during my pregnancy with my now almost 17 year old. I knew very little about growing and birthing a baby. I didn’t even know that midwives were still a thing. I had just moved and didn’t know which OBGYN I should choose or what criteria I should consider when choosing the right doctor. I ran my finger down the OBGYN column in the yellow pages, dialled the number to the office where my finger stopped, but misdialled and instead reached Mary, the midwife. Mary talked to me on the phone that day for an hour and a half and immediately, I knew who was going to catch my baby.

I began going to all the prenatal appointments, followed Mary’s instructions and suggestions, and thought that if I did all these things everything would work out perfectly. I went to the local breastfeeding group, improved my eating habits, read the books and attended a childbirth class. I was convinced all this work and lifestyle change was enough.

Finally, the big day arrived. I went into labour at my baby shower, finished up with our guests and went home to rest. Night came. I silently breathed through contractions until well after sunrise. I was terrified and decided it was time to go to the hospital. Only 1 cm dilated, they sent me back home to labour some more. My mother, my daughter’s father and his parents were with me timing contractions and talking, waiting to go back to the hospital. After a while we drove back over. I was 4 cm dilated and Mary agreed it was best to stay. They set me up in a room lit with florescent lighting, started the fetal monitor they insisted on using 20 minutes of every hour and inserted an IV. This alone made it extremely difficult to get up out of bed and move the way my body needed. I was tired. They would not allow me to eat and nurses came and went.

I felt completely prepared when labour started but soon realised that I was not prepared for much of what was happening. I was exhausted and medical staff started threatening that if things don’t move along, I would end up with a c-section. My labour stalled. I felt powerless and out of control. Something I kept thinking over and over was since I found Mary the way I did, by misdialling the number, she was the perfect birth attendant for me and she would be able to get me through. I put a great deal of responsibility and weight on her and did not take control of my body, my own choices and experience.

I believe the reason I did not trust myself is because I didn’t feel I had the primordial wisdom and skill, the internal knowing that labouring women instinctively have. I hadn’t even considered this a possibility. I figured whatever Mary said, I would do. I didn’t trust myself and my body’s ability to birth my baby. By 23 hours I asked for an epidural and I was able to rest for a while. After a few more hours I started to push and another four hours later, Aynsleigh was born. Right before that last push, Mary told me that if I don’t get her out during the next contraction, they would start preparing for a c-section. That was not necessary in the end and my beautiful, healthy baby girl entered the world.

I have spent a lot of time over the years thinking about that story, blaming myself for some of the choices I made, for things I didn’t do, for things I “should have” done differently. I have learned that birthing a child is a vulnerable, raw, emotional time for women. Fears and things we don’t like about ourselves often come up during childbirth. They come up for a reason – to mirror back to us that which needs our attention. It’s the raw material for our personal, deep inner journeys. These are things we need to look at to clear and heal, or they might require our embrace, for us to hold them near. Maybe it’s something to simply accept and not change at all. Feeling through these fears and emotions, allowing our power as women to come forth is immensely healing. This process grows us into who we become as women, as mothers. Trusting ourselves and our body’s ability to birth a child is an empowering process that when embraced has the potential to change us, our families and has a ripple effect into the world.

I support pregnant women on their journeys as they uncover and process fear and old wounds. I support women as they tap into the wisdom of the ancients, of those who have birthed before, the wisdom of their own bodies and that of the trees of the forest. If you – have lost a pregnancy, are thinking about having a baby, pregnant with your first, or subsequent babies – are called to this work and support as you embark on your journey, please connect with me. We can begin a conversation so you can feel into whether this work is in alignment for you. Much of the support I offer can be done remotely. If you are looking for a doula, my practice is in the Fredericksburg, VA area.

With love,



Revisiting My Filters


Each of us interpret and perceive life experiences through our individual filters. I regularly question my filters, pre-conceived notions and perceptions; a practice I recommend for everybody. Most recently, I had a major wake-up and reality check. I realised I often form opinions and judgements on topics about which I know very little. What do I base these opinions on? Of course, things I read, the media, conversations with others, thus determining what resonates and what doesn’t. Ultimately, the power of the collective is so strong, it can sway the most steadfast amoung us.

What is collective consciousness? According to the French sociologist, Emile Durkheim, collective consciousness is the set of shared beliefs, ideas and moral attitudes which operate as a unifying force within society. How is the collective informed? Mostly through media, as well as gossip, prejudice and assumption. Most media, with the exception of some independent journalists, is unreliable due to sensationalism for the purpose of increasing profit margins. Pessimistic? Perhaps. True? Yes.

So, how do we discern what’s in alignment with truth, with authenticity? How do we discern what to align ourselves with? Our individual opinions must take a backseat. What is fundamental in today’s social and political climate relates to people’s direct experiences, the experiences and opinions of those affected, and the reasons and intensions behind decisions that were made. When the media leaves this information out or misrepresents facts, it is up to each one of us to keep an open mind, stay grounded and centred, and not jump to conclusions.

Mass movements are often based on mistruths. I find myself feeling a sense of betrayal and anger at the misrepresentation of information and destruction at the expense of innocent people. The powers that be can easily (and often do) shape us into who they want us to become. I know it’s easier said than done but my only thought is to develop a daily spiritual and mindfulness practice to strengthen inner-fortitude and alignment with Source in the face of adversity. Trust your intuition and inner-guidance system, and constantly set intension to align with Truth.





A Shake Up That’s A Wake Up


When life gets shaky, stay grounded and trust. Life has been shaky for many lately. We see evidence of this around the globe; in the political arena, in the media, in our communities and in our personal lives. How does one stay grounded at times like this? How does one trust at times like this?

That on which we focus our attention will continue to manifest. If we focus on the negative, on the false notion of duality, of division – us versus them, rich versus poor, black versus white, christian versus muslim, gun owner versus gun non-owner – more of the same will manifest in our experience. We will continue to see these differences as a means to divide ourselves from one another. This division is puppetry. It is choosing to be controlled like a puppet.

This sense of division creates weakness and fear. This sense of division creates a world where anger and hatred rule the show and powerlessness prevails; and the notion is not real.

What’s real is that we are all ONE.

We are all of the Divine.

Our power lies in realising, fully accepting and appreciating this truth. Our power lies in realising what we can accomplish when each one of us focusses on our own wellbeing and the wellbeing of all others. Our power lies in accepting and unconditionally loving ourselves and all of humanity as we love ourselves. Our power lies in lifting each other up and encouraging the other to find and live their life’s purpose and move toward their highest potential. Our power lies in making sure the needs of every single human being on this planet are met, that each of us have not only food, clothing and shelter, but all resources to flourish. Our power lies in treating our neighbours as we would treat ourselves. As Gandhi said, “an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind”.

Now, this false sense of duality can dissolve and our oneness recognised.

With Love,



Veils are Lifting


‘Go with the flow’ and flexibility appear to be the way. Many changes are happening as people wake up to what’s real. Things that seemed important before feel less important now while other things that weren’t on the radar are now taking up space.

These changes manifest in physical, emotional and spiritual ways. It takes time to integrate and anchor, and some days can be more challenging than others. Practical ways to help integrate and anchor the new are through yoga and meditation. That’s what they all say, right? Well, yes indeed, and it’s true. I have been doing yoga daily, even if all I can squeeze in is a simple 5 minute child’s pose. Taking a yoga class at your local studio can feel nurturing and healing. Sweat and stretches help release pent up energy and can assist with emotional and spiritual shifts, as well as healing.

Mediation is another way to integrate and anchor these new energies. Again, even if you only have a couple of minutes during the day, take the time to close your eyes, take a deep breath or two and bring your attention to the present moment. After all, that’s all we have.

Another useful way to anchor and integrate is to spend time with nature. Go for a hike or paddle on the river. When life feels out of control, nature can help ground us. If all this is a little too much, climb into bed with a cup of warm tea and get plenty of rest so that you can create an opening to receive the new. Now that the eclipse has happened, the new is coming in at exponential rates and for those of us who are extra sensitive to change, these tools can be very useful.

Spend time alone while creating environments where you feel supported by family and/or friends. Many are allowing their creative juices to flow, which often means 180 degree change from what once was. You might do something unexpected like quit a job or move to a new town. Whatever you are inspired to do, as long as it’s in alignment with your true self, take the plunge and jump off the cliff. These changes are likely to present challenges. That’s okay. Go for it. These challenges are part of growth and a whole lot better than living a life that’s not in alignment with who you are.

Feeling fear and uncertainty is likely to happen. If you need support, reach out. I offer intuitive and Akashic Record Healings that can be immeasurably useful during times like these. I work on a sliding scale, offer remote sessions and free 15 minute consultations so you can decide if this work is right for you.

With Love,



Fully Embracing our Raw Selves

A. Lundin

The raw parts of ourselves are those unhealed parts, those parts that lay open feeling vulnerable, those parts that need tender loving care over and over again. Then, more tender loving care, as much as it takes to finally let go and open up into a space of healing.

Often times, those are the parts of us from which we distract ourselves, that we run away from over and over again, while at the same time creating situations that add more pain to the rawness we already feel. Why do we do this? We do this to create a space in time that feels so unbearable that we have no other option but to give ourselves permission to break free from what has kept us in bondage for so long. It’s a glorious process and opening that allows release.

Often, the initiating circumstance that triggered these feelings and ways of being in the world began during childhood, perhaps a different incarnation or even ancestral pain from which we now have the privilege of breaking free. We carry these wounds in our psyches and in cell memory, thereby recreating the same patterns in adulthood. It’s those times we might ask ourselves, ‘why the heck am I doing this? I have promised myself never to enter into a relationship like this again, and here I am in the exact same situation’.

When we allow ourselves to break free from one of these holdings, like breaking up a relationship, the action opens a perfect opportunity to do the work. It’s often the time we feel most raw and vulnerable, in a space of deep pain and sadness. This is the juicy moment that allows us to meander deep into the underworld, down where we can feel all that we can feel and ask ourselves questions that will ultimately liberate us. While allowing ourselves to feel the pain, asking, ‘why do I feel this pain so deeply? What memories lay deep in the unconscious that needs to come up into the light? What experiences need to be given a voice? What are the parts of me I need to love unconditionally, those parts of me that I am calling up to reclaim and love, love deeper, and even deeper?’

Give yourself time and quiet space and these questions will get answered. Two ways in which I have found healing and answers are through dreamwork and working with the Akashic Records. Setting intension before falling asleep at night that your guides will allow you to receive information during the dream state and that you will remember the dreams upon awaking, having a pen and notebook ready when you wake up, writing the dreams down and then meditating on them can be unmeasurably useful in discovering those parts of yourself that lay buried.

Opening and accessing the Akashic Records is another way information can come into awareness. You can access the Records yourself or request someone else whom you trust access the Records for you. If you’d like more information on how to access the Records yourself or if you’d like an Akashic Record Healing from me, please reach out. I offer 15 minute free information sessions over the phone where I will answer questions you might have. If you’re still interested at that point, we can schedule a full Akashic Record healing for you. I can be reached at birthingnewdimensions@gmail.com

With Love,


The Power of Nature


Above, is the image of a turtle laying eggs. I recently moved into a new (old) home. The day I arrived with my belongings, I walked into the backyard and watched a turtle lay eggs, looked up and saw a Red Tailed Hawk fly right in front of my face. Both turtle and hawk symbolism is powerful and their greeting was the perfect homecoming!

The turtle is known for endurance, determination, protection, strength, the feminine, motherhood and Divinity. The hawk is a messenger and is known for intuition, vision, power, protection and rebirth. This is all very significant as I move into the next phase of my journey.

I have recently moved back into a house I lived in over 13 years ago. Since that time, much has changed; however, I now find myself right back where I started but with a whole new appreciation for everyone and everything involved.

It’s a long and pretty amazing story (I think anyway). But for now, I want to leave you with this: Trust your journey. Trust your path. Trust when inspired by the Divine, even when you and everyone around you thinks you’re crazy. I had to up and leave. I have undergone many trials along the way and have been protected every step. I have been reborn through the experience. I receive animal symbolism as messages from the Divine as evidence I am on the right path. It feels like I have tapped my heels together three times and arrived back home.

With Love,


Seasons Change


As we age and grow, people enter and exit our lives continuously, and some brave souls stick around through it all. The right people are present always at the right time to love and be loved, support and be supported, and to learn and teach valuable life lessons.

Relationships are not always hunky dory, even the great ones, and learning to trust the tides and cycles is important.

My spiritual journey started years ago and my solid commitment to the journey continues. I did my best meandering through relationships before making a conscious decision to embark on the journey and those relationships are part of what brought about major transformation. My perception of that time now is completely different than my perception was then. I have learned many valuable life lessons along the way. Now, I seemingly find myself right back where I started but have died and been reborn many times along the way and it’s different. It’s different now.

One of the lessons I have learned is well encapsulated in the following words from the Dalai Lama:

At the end of the talk someone from the audience asked the Dalai Lama, “Why didn’t you fight back against the Chinese?” The Dalai Lama looked down, swung his feet just a bit, then looked back up and said with a gentle smile, “Well, war is obsolete, you know ” Then, after a few moments, his face grave, he said, “Of course the mind can rationalize
fighting back…but the heart, the heart would never understand. Then you would be divided in yourself, the heart and the mind, and the war would be inside you.”

What these words mean to me on a micro-scale is that back then, I rationalised my fears. My mind rationalised behaviours and responses based on fear. These fear-based behaviours and responses did not help situations and relationships. I thought I was doing the right thing. I thought I was being fair and kind. Looking back, I realise that those fear-based responses hurt people, including myself. I was at war with myself.

I have learned that behaviours, responses, choices and decisions that are love-based will always have positive results. They will always be in the highest interest of the soul development of everyone involved. Behaviours, responses, choices and decisions that are fear-based, often seem ‘right’ in the moment but end up hurting people. So, how does one know if a choice is love-based or fear-based?

Well, this is certainly a process, one that I continue to learn. For me, the clarity sometimes happens immediately and at other times, it takes a while. The most important thing is to feel into it. I ask myself questions like, where do I feel the situation/question and the possible solution? Do I feel it in my gut? Do I feel it in my heart? Often times, if I feel it in my gut (solar plexus), it’s fear-based. If I feel it in my heart, it’s love-based. I have noticed that what’s right for me often defies logic. I can’t explain it, I simply feel it’s right for me. Through much patience, practice and growing awareness, I am learning to discern between these different feelings and emotions. I am learning to trust God on deeper levels every day.

Another lesson I have learned is that situations and their outcomes fall into alignment right after a choice is made. When faced with important decisions, I’ve noticed I had to first make the choice, often times not conceiving of a way the situation might work out but feeling in my heart that it is in alignment with my soul, with God. Then, the situation would simply work out effortlessly and I’d be left wondering how in the world that just happened. When in alignment with God, miracles happen all the time.

For years, I have struggled to maintain a healthy relationship with someone I love deeply. I have gone through phases of blame, taking responsibility, wracking my brains trying to figure things out, taking breaks with no communication, letting go, feeling numb, feeling angry, you name it. When I made the choice to shift my energy, to love unconditionally – myself and this person – and move beyond wrongdoing and rightdoing, God’s love shined through.

As Rumi says, “Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing there is a field. I’ll meet you there. When the soul lies down in that grass the world is too full to talk about.”

This relationship has come around. I never thought, it my wildest dreams it ever would. But it did. It is. God’s love is all that’s needed and mountains will move. As Jesus said, “…if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”


With Love,